In response to my images of the scale reflecting new low points, many friends have asked this question to me.
What is your goal?
I have one goal.
No number? No date?
I can not predict how I’ll look and feel after losing 10, 20, or more pounds.
I’ve been 300+ pounds for 25+ years.
I’ve been 350+ pounds for better part of the last 14 years.
Every pound is a victory!
I’ve lost 50+ pounds twice before, in 2008 and 2013.
I have thought about dieting so many times, but the anger and sadness that I failed and gained back the weight each time, with a vengeance, is depressing.
I never want to go back to that place.
What’s different this time?
I am more hyper aware than ever as to what works for me.
I am aware more than ever I need to ignore the so called advice from others.
I am aware that every time I slip I am offending myself and the hard work it took to get that victory.
Don’t know where I am headed but I am never going back
A boss of mine once told me I will always be fat. Not sure if he said that as a total jerk or as a way to challenge me.
The words were equally depressing and motivating.
Other shave told me I can do it and I did not.
For twenty plus years I have known what to do. I could have written this blog, perhaps a book, many times over
But knowledge is useless without action.
Do what you always do, get what you always got
One of my big “secrets” is creating new habits.
I know I cannot portion control well so I have to cut out certain foods altogether.
So I need to just say no to all chips, crackers, nuts, chocolate, cookies, cakes, donuts, bread, pasta, milk, cheese, alcohol, caffiene etc etc etc
Some of these foods trigger cravings, others kill my metabolism.
What ever it is, by not eating these food, I lose.
When I even sneak a taste, I slip backwards.
Add to that avoiding to much downtime on the couch and the formula is simple.
off to the gym and some laps in the pools….